I guess this is a start right? Well I started off chubby. I was a 9 pound 14 ounce baby. Based on the pictures I saw I seemed "normal" but it all took a turn. I remember during the physical fitness test in elementary school we all had to get weighed. When it came my turn, I weighed 102 pounds at age 10. Then I noticed my number was larger than the other girls in my class.
The pounds added on from then on. I was always known as the girl with the "cute face".
I recall when I was 16 that I lost a couple of pounds...I got a night job, I ran into this man who told me that I looked good since I was losing weight and that if I lost a little more weight he would ask me for my telephone number. That hurt me so bad! How could he tell me something like that?
I have to admit it, I am GORGEOUS. I have always kept me a nice looking boyfriend. Hell I am married. But still. I act happy, but I am not.
My friend used to tell me that I should try out to be a plus sized model because I have a cute figure & a "cute" face. Model for what? I am not comfortable in the skin I am in.
The heaviest I have been was 334. I am now down to 283 (lost 3 pounds on ww). I have tried crash diets and took all kinds of pills. The last draw was when I decided to throw up my food. The obsession with me losing weight had went to far!
August 28th I decided to give up the pills and join weight watchers.
I am not perfect but I'm me.
I decided not to only lose weight for me, but for my daughters. They deserve a mommy that is healthy. One that is able to play with them and not be tired. I want them to be proud that I am their mommy and I completed something instead of taking the easy way out.
I am doing this for ME...I want to feel sexy, wear slutty clothes for my husband...yeah I said it... I whether you hate me for being me, instead of you loving me for being someone I am not.
This is my story...unaltered. This is me.
THE BEGINNING (August 28, 2008 - 286 pounds)
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